Sunday, July 16, 2017
I am generally very happy living by myself and spending most of my time alone.
Yet I do look forward to getting together with friends (unless it is a large group thing). But often when I've been with them for a while I find myself longing to get away from them and be on my own again. I probably don't cover that up as well as I hope I do.
I appreciate that people still deal with me at all. I must be a real pain in the ass a lot of the time.
It's not intentional.
I drink when I'm out for the evening because:
1) I think it will make me more sociable
2) I'm bored. (Approach/avoidance -- I want to be with people/I want to be alone.)
It might be better if I stopped drinking.